that feeling

i have yet to have that feeling that people promised me i was going to get when i graduated high school in may of 2008.

"you better enjoy it now because one day you're going to miss it."

WRONG.

so far, anyways.

i never liked school, i'm not sure if it was the sitting in a hard chair all day listening to someone talk about things that mean nothing to me, or the waking up while it's still dark to actually GET there on time. who knows. but i do know, i haven't yet missed that place. and to tell you the truth, i haven't used the square root process while standing in line trying to figure out my total at wal-mart, therefore i have certainly never had to solve 9y-3y+5=4y+7 in my daily grind.

i don't miss the teachers. i don't miss the homework. i don't miss the ballgames. i don't miss homecoming. i don't miss awards day. i don't miss anything. (i sound like a real outsider huh? haha)

highschool was one of the most dramatic places i have ever set foot in. and for a while, i was soaking every single bit of that up with the other snoody girls in our "christian" school. i was one of the girls who didn't like someone because they weren't wearing new clothes on the first day of school. i was one of the girls in the principals office all.the.time because we were SO dramatic and snoody.

i wasted so much time being caught up in those things, that when i got out of highschool the real world kicked me in my face.

i went to college, started living with a boyfriend that i hadn't known for even a few months, gave him exactly what he wanted.. still caught up in the same mess high school "taught" me.

it wasn't until i decided school wasn't for me until i actually "found myself."

i ditched the douche, (is that a bad word?) i started going to church, i got my life right, and i met michael <3

look where i am now. i am so thankful, and i am so blessed beyond belief.

i may not have a million aquaintances, or even talk to many of the people i spent most of my years with, but i do have a few real friends.

[example:] brianna is an amazing friend, she's gorgeous. she's sweet and we're a lot alike! and she really has an amazing heart. and her boyfriend has a cool name ;) [michael] i love her. i really do. i would rather have one real friend than a thousand fake friends. i would rather sorround myself with one person who loves jesus with every fiber of their being that be caught in the mess i was in.

i am completely in love with jesus.

i am MARRIED. at the age of 20 years old i have been married for almost 6 months now.

i have been provided with a wonderful job, not only a job i don't dread going to, but financially supports my family, along with my husband at the age of 21, working at a dealership and keeping up with every old man there! :)

so no, i don't miss it.

not. one. itsy. bitsy. teensie. weensie. bit.

this is the whitney now.

i kinda like her.

and i think you will too :)

xoxo